It’s a Cookie!!

This morning my eyes zeroed in on the left over plate of chocolate chip cookies from dessert last night. I’m not gonna lie, I had a few as my breakfast. (my journey with food will be on the blog soon) Anyways, Marty walked over and I offered him a bite of my cookie. He just looked and said “no”. I thought to myself, “of course he doesn’t want a cookie with a bite out of it. He wants a new and untouched cookie”. So, I looked for the softest one in the bag and held it out for him. He looked at me and said, “no.”  I then realized that he didn’t know what it was or what it tasted like. It was easy for him to say “no” to it because he was uneducated on the goodness that was contained in that little piece of fluffiness.

This has got me thinking this morning. I think we say “no” to goodness from our daddy’s open hand on a regular basis because we don’t know what it is that He is offering. We forget His faithful and good character.

Every morning we wake up and He has good things in store, but we choose to be grumpy because we aren’t looking forward to what we think today holds. He is standing at our bed side with an open hand of an amazing day that He wants to hand us. But we choose “no”.   I am not saying that He is offering a perfect day without troubles, but I am saying that He is offering to walk through it with us and show His face and sprinkle blessings along the way.

Maybe God has a new job for you and your scared because you have been working at your job for 10 years and it’s comfortable and predictable…God is looking at you, “No, really, this cookie is delicious, warm, and will rock your world”. We look at him and say “no, thank you”.

I know for me personally I have missed out on some incredible relationships because of my insecurities, fear of rejection, or maybe just because I was lazy and didn’t feel like investing.

I am about to say good bye to someone that I pushed away for years. I allowed my insecurities and fear of rejection hold her at a distance. About a year ago, Jesus finally had his way and caused mine and this friend’s world to collide in a way that I never saw coming. She has challenged me to embrace myself through the eyes of love, grace, and kindness. She has introduced me to the holy spirit in a way that has forever changed me and my relationship with Jesus. Courtney, you are a chocolate chip cookie that I said “no” to for so long, I am so thankful for Jesus’ persistence in getting our worlds to collide. Now, I will try not to be bitter at the lost years! 😉

What is your cookie that Jesus is extending to you?

Is it a job? Is it a house? Is it a move? Is it adoption? Is it fostering? Is it a career change? Is it a relationship? Is it investing more into your marriage? Is it letting go of your finances in exchange for what Jesus has for you?

Join me, let’s quit saying no to God’s goodness when it may not look like His goodness. Say “yes!” to the unfamiliar cookie!!!

It is time to trust Him and His never-ending faithfulness. Sit back and watch His blessings pour out on us. He has good plans for us that we just have to accept, choose, and walk out.

Jeremiah 29:11 “ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'”

“Samson With a Buzz Cut”

I don’t know that I have ever listened to the same message 3 times, until this month. Levi Lusko gave a message at Passion 2017 that rocked my world. Levi referred to relying on our own strength like Samson with a buzz cut. Anyone who knows the story of Samson in the Bible knows that his strength left him along with his hair when it was cut off. Levi talked about how we over and over again try to rely on our own will-power instead of God’s power. We come to find that we are just like Samson with a buzz cut. We are desperate for God’s power. His amazing and perfect power.

I am desperate for God’s power. His amazing and perfect power.

Up until last Friday, I realized that I had been trying to operate out of my own strength in a certain situation and I was failing miserably…obviously!

I found out a few weeks ago that my mentor is moving. It hit me like a ton of bricks. It took me until last Friday to pull up my big girl pants and fall into God’s strength. For weeks I cried, I ditched church, I was angry, and I was mean to those around me. Surprising enough, my own strength failed me. After a series of podcasts, hours of worship music and journaling Jesus kindly revealed to me that His strength is capable enough to carry me.

So, here I am, allowing myself to mourn the lack of proximity of someone so dear to me, but clinging to Jesus and His great strength and I am doing well 🙂 I know that God has big and good things in store for the both of us.

It is one thing to be bummed, its another thing to allow it to zap us. I don’t know about you, but in my zapping, I was selfish and not as effective as I could have been if I would have from the beginning been relying on His power and not my own.

Do you have something bumming you out? Maybe a friend moving away? Maybe work drama? Maybe you have no idea how you are going to pay August’s rent/mortgage? Maybe you are drowning in diapers? Maybe your drowning in social media as you look for your teenager? Mourning the loss of your marriage? Health issues? Can’t buy a house? Can’t sell a house? Desperately wanting to find a spouse? Maybe have a baby? Mourning a broken relationship that you care so deeply about?

You will not get through on your own power. You are desperate for God’s supernatural power that is here and ready for the taking. Don’t waste anymore time trying to get through this season on your own!

Choose Jesus. Reach out and grab His extended hand and then hold on tight because the journey is amazing and worth it!

It’s Been Awhile…

I have had it on my mind and heart to post for awhile now. I just haven’t known what to post about, so I have put it off. A few days ago, I realized it has been a month since I last posted and I had been posting 4-5 times a month. It made me think back on the last month and come to terms with why I have been silent on my blog….

It has been a difficult month.

Molly officially moved out on May 22nd. The heat has come full force. Weiland got out of school for the summer. Marty is more attached to me than a magnet on cobalt. I’d be lying if I said that I was successfully choosing joy while keeping my eyes on Jesus.

I so want this blog to be a place of encouragement and inspiration for my readers as the waves of life hit you. I haven’t felt like I have been able to write from a place of encouragement and inspiration so I just haven’t written.

I don’t like that.

I started Kay Warren’s new book last week called “Sacred Privilege” that my super sweet and thoughtful friend, Kristen, ordered for me. Kay wrote it for pastor’s wives and it could not have come at a more perfect time. Yesterday I read a chapter talking about the importance of leading vulnerably through our brokenness and difficult seasons. It reminded me that I have always wanted to be that kind of a leader so here I am writing to all of you in the midst of a difficult season 🙂

Something that has not changed, for the first time in my walk as a Christian, is that I am still in the word daily. Journaling, listening to messages, Hillsong United’s new album on repeat, and continually conversing with Jesus. It has been so incredible to be in the midst of hardship and yet still so close to Jesus. Jesus never promises us an easy life, He just promises us to never leave us as we live our lives.

Hebrews 13:5b – “God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”

What I want to commit to all of you is that I will do my best to do the following: 1. Fight frustration and depression from cabin fever brought on by the burning sun. 2. Trust Jesus every Sunday evening as I hand over Molly to her mom that He will continue to fight for her and protect her. 3. Attempt to be the best possible momma to my boys by plugging into patience and grace with Weiland as I navigate his high level of energy and ADHD as well as embrace how much Marty loves me and try to remember that these days are short lived…

What can you do with your areas of frustration? How do you spend your time? What do you listen to? What do you watch? How is your abiding in Jesus looking? The Bible is very clear that apart from Jesus we can do nothing. Abiding in Him is essential in getting us to where He wants us and were we will thrive! Where is your commitment level to being surrounded by other believers that will encourage and inspire you in your walk?

We are in this together! Please don’t try to do this life alone!

Now, hopefully I will be back more frequently than the last month! Until then…hang with Jesus, hang in church, and hang with those that make you want to be more like Jesus 🙂

Peace out 🙂