Lessons from Waze

I don’t know about you all, but I love the app called Waze. It is a direction app that in my experience appears to be more creative and accurate than Google maps. It just got way better too because you can pick someone to record directions and so it feels like a loved one is with you anytime you are using the app to get around. Currently my younger sister, Jamie, travels everywhere with me and it is GLORIOUS!!

Waze will have multiple options to pick from and it will show you how long each will take and advise you based on traffic and accidents. It cuts hours off the drive if you need to go somewhere during peak traffic time.

Most recently Jamie’s voice was directing me around Orange County the day before the 4th in the mid afternoon. I knew traffic would be horrible on the way home so I tapped on my handy dandy Waze app and started on the journey back home. Let me tell you, it took me on roads and highways that seemed so wrong to me. And so I was talking to “Jamie” asking her if she was sure and I was fighting the urge that made me want to turn around and trust my knowledge of the roads.

Right as I was arguing in my head with Waze, I felt a gentle prodding, “trust this process”. Then I thought about how Waze has a complete aerial view that I do not have. Because I didn’t abort the mission with Waze, hours were cut off my trip home with only minimal traffic.

So many times this is what my relationship with Jesus looks like. He’ll ask me to talk to someone, go somewhere, adopt someone, quit watching or listening to something, do or don’t spend money on specific things, or most baffling, to just rest and be. Sometimes I argue, sometimes I roll my eyes, sometimes I get scared, sometimes I say no, and sometimes while trembling I step out in obedience.

Last week on my drive, I was reminded of God’s perfect aerial view. Life doesn’t always make sense, in my experience, most of the time it doesn’t. But when I trust the process and remain sensitive to the Spirit’s leading, there is more joy and peace available than could ever be fathomed.

Waze offered me not only the best possible directions last week, but a very important and life changing lesson, Jesus ALWAYS knows what He is doing and He can ALWAYS be trusted.

“Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight.” – Proverbs 3:5-6

AMEN!!

Dear Martin’s Birth Mom…

Today is our son’s 3rd birthday. I was just sitting on the floor playing with him and it hit me, “I wonder how you are doing today”? My heart instantly started aching for you and the emotions that may be flooding your heart every June 30th, and other days, for that matter.

I doubt that you will ever read this blog, but I don’t want to doubt what God can do 🙂

I want to thank you. Thank you for your courage and strength to choose adoption for Marty. He has brought so much healing and joy into our family. He is a gift that I will NEVER stop thanking Jesus for. His life is a miracle that you selflessly chose to give life to.

Marty is goofy, kind, and joyful. He has big dimples, big brown eyes, and big lips! He’s always smiling and laughing. In the last month he has potty trained himself and taught himself to swim. You created an adorable little smarty pants 🙂

If you ever find this blog and recognize this picture, know that he is in good hands. He is loved by all. He is a gift that you have given us and we will never stop thanking you and our God.

You are in our thoughts and prayers. Praying that Jesus’ pursuit of you is obvious and His love is undeniable in your life.

Love,

Marty’s other momma 🙂

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Sweetness in the Solitude

Hello! Long time no blog. It’s not for lack of substance to write about, but for lack of clarity as to what to write about.

Jason was blessed to have 4 weeks off this last month and so I decided to fast from Instagram while he was off from work. I wanted to be able to be fully present and engage with the family. During this time of intentionality, I experienced sweetness with my family, with my girls, and with my Jesus.

As I was journaling yesterday, I could feel a blog brewing and I knew it was time to speak up on here and social media. I never want to live my life learning lessons and not sharing them in case someone else is going through the same thing. My prayer is to live a life of encouragement to the best of my ability, so here it goes! 🙂

First things first, I have had to apologize to Jesus for this one. Awhile back I hurt my back pretty bad. I couldn’t sit on hard surfaces, I had a hard time sleeping, I could barely stand once I had been sitting or laying down. It was so painful. I have been working out about 5 times a week for a few months now so I am sure that was part of it. Anyways, I was going to bed one night and I begged Jesus to heal my back and then I told him, “Never mind, why would you heal my back? What do you get out of this? There is no point in healing my back.” I felt Him gently speak to my spirit, “What if I wanted to heal it just because your my kid and I love you?” The next morning, no lie, I woke up and my back was totally better! I went to the gym and catered to it because I kept thinking there was no way it was healed. But it was! I am a loud mouth and I tell everyone who is anyone when something cool happens, but I mentioned this to ONLY 2 people. It felt embarrassing or like I was making it up. One of those people even said to me, “Maybe you really didn’t hurt your back to begin with”. So my first lesson of sweetness in this solitude is this: Never stop asking Jesus for healing. Even if it seems stupid or unimportant. I don’t care if it’s a bee sting, a head ache, or cancer. Jesus wants to heal it all! He is a good daddy who likes to heal His kids.

Secondly, there is so much power in stepping away from social media. I have loved being fully present with my family and those close to me during this last 4 weeks. Nothing has distracted me, well, except for Candy Crush :), and it has been so much easier to engage in the present and take pictures just because I wanted to capture the moment for me. I debated even going back on at all, but I had a friend tell me a story about how my posts encouraged her to pursue Jesus and His joy. So, if Jesus is going to use my posts even just for one person, I’m back on! 🙂

Thirdly, like I said previously, I have been working out diligently since the middle of March and watching what I eat since the end of 2017. The numbers on the scale have barely moved so I have gotten discouraged quite often. I then had a friend encourage me to list out all of my non scale victories. Okay, any of you in this boat with me, DO THIS EXERCISE! It was so encouraging. I had 9 victories on my list and it helped shift my perspective and remind myself that I am doing this for health and not a number. You too, my friend, are more than a number. Keep pursuing health and do your best to ignore the number on the scale.

Lastly,  the importance of “surrender, trust, and then watch” keeps coming up in my life. This is so hard for me as I am a pretty intense control freak. Whether I want to help someone I love feel better, get my child to obey or my husband to understand, maybe the stress of finances, or the fact that I don’t feel done building my family but I have no control how or when our next child could come. The power of surrender is incredible. When done successfully it is so liberating and joyous. I have been able to surrender on occasion, where I lose my patience is the trust/watch portion. Jesus has taught me in this sweet solitude over and over again, that my part in this relationship is to trust, even when it feels like its taking forever or not happening like I think it should. His ways are always higher and better and His promises are true. If this truth could penetrate our hearts and minds, it would revolutionize our lives. Who wants less than best?! I know that I don’t want to settle in any area of my life, so if the timing isn’t right for what I’m asking for, then please, Lord, don’t bring it to pass.

So, here you have it! These are my most significant lessons learned during this sweet time of solitude. I am so thankful to serve such an incredible God. When we live life WITH Him, nothing else matters. His presence is never ending and always available.

Take some time today. Even if it is minutes, and just sit with your Abba, let Him whisper how much He loves you 🙂

A Letter to My Girls

 

This last Saturday my girl, who I affectionately call, Kenna Boo Bear, texted me and asked if she could come hang out after church. This was a no brainer, my girls bring life into my home, hence the revolving door day in and day out. She came over, we laughed and had our usual heart to heart talks. She asked if she could stay the night and go to church with us in the morning, I will NEVER turn this down! It means I get to take a shower before church!! Hallelujah!

Sunday, KBB went above and beyond.  She got the boys dressed, took them on a walk, and entertained them so I could get ready for church, uninterrupted! As I was taking a shower, I was overwhelmed with gratitude for this 15 year old’s ability to be the hands and feet of Jesus in my family.

Over the last 17 years I have had the privilege of doing life with some of the most incredible teens known to man. In the very first batch of girls, a few of them are married with children of their own and then in the most recent batch, they are navigating their teens years. No matter where you are, girls, I think of you often and I am so thankful and honored that Jesus has allowed me to know you and live some of your seasons with you!

This letter is for you!

Dear pieces of my heart,

You are loved. You are beautiful. You are all extremely unique and gifted. Jesus knit you in your momma’s wombs and knew that good was coming to the world.

Thank you for loving me like you have. Those of you who loved me when I was just starting out in ministry brought me so much joy,  laughter , and lessons 🙂 Those of you who love me as an almost 40 year old teach me so much! The cool lingo, the fashion do’s and don’ts, the iPhone apps that I don’t want to know exist, and that watching Netflix and chilling, really isn’t watching Netflix and chilling… Most importantly, you have taught me the importance of a good hug, a smile, an “I love you”, and letting loose to have fun.

I beg you, remember who your creator is. Remember that you are royalty. Remember to keep Jesus as your first love, no matter if you are married or not. Keep Jesus on the throne in your hearts and minds. Grace, girls, shower yourselves with grace. Be tender and aware when your heart hurts and allow it to hurt, and then nurture it with tenderness and grace.

I know that you all struggle to some degree with addictions, hurts, losses, anxiety, heart break, depression, loneliness, or low self-respect/love. My heart breaks with you and for you.  BUT, I am comforted because I know that Jesus sees you, cries with you, comforts you, leads you, and is always with you. So, my prayer is that your awareness of the Holy Spirit would be so undeniable in your life. I pray that His comfort, peace, strength, joy, rest, healing, and freedom would burst forth in each of your lives as you pursue God’s heart for you.

There is none like you and it is my joy and honor to know you, love you, and pray over you. Thank you for all that you add to my life.  My existence on this Earth is richer because of you!

Happy Valentine’s Day to all of you, of all ages, who brighten my life in the deepest and most meaningful ways!

I love you!

 

Pain….

Pain…Something that we all feel at some point in our lives. Could be physical and it could be emotional. In my opinion the emotional pain is by far the worst kind of pain. When one of the teen girls that I mentor come to me with a broken heart from a boy I always tell them, “I would rather have every bone in my body broken, than a broken heart”.

I believe there are even different levels of emotional pain. I remember when I was single and one of the guys would either not like me back or break up with me, I couldn’t even eat. The pain was so deep that it consumed me.  Like I’ve talked about in a previous post, Jason broke up with me after we had already started talking marriage. I remember that I couldn’t get out of bed for about 3 days. I lost weight. I couldn’t work. I was a mess. The pain was so deep.

I have been processing the pain of saying good bye to our foster daughter after having her for the first 2 years of her life. It’s been 4 months since she was last in our home and the pain is still there. Some nights the pain hurts so bad that it is difficult to breathe. A few months ago I went to our church’s women’s retreat up in the mountains. On the drive there my amazing friend, Courtney, said something that has stuck with me and has been repeating in my mind ever since.

“Jesus is not an epidural, He’s a midwife. He doesn’t want to numb the pain, He wants to deliver us from it.”

For the thousandth time I thought to myself, how do people process pain without Jesus. He is my hope. He is my strength. He is my joy. He is my song. Even though I love Jesus with my whole heart and serve Him the best I know how to, I gained 30 pounds from when we picked up Molly from the hospital until the end of last year. (2 years and 3 months) Food is what I would go to when there was a bad visit, a hard court hearing, and when I finally had to say good bye to her. Food and shopping got my devotion which has left me thicker than I’d like to be and poorer than I’d like to be 🙂 I wanted tangible. I wanted to numb the pain because it hurt too bad to feel. What I found is the numbing wore off a whole lot quicker than I had hoped.

When I went to Jesus, His compassionate arms held me, but didn’t numb the pain, so then I would pour a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. What I have learned in the recent weeks is that Jesus loves me too much to numb the pain. He wants me to process it, feel it, and release it. His healing comes when we do this process. I still miss Mo a lot, but I have never had so much joy or peace in my life than I do today.

It has only been 24 days since making some radical changes in my eating and shopping, but I finally feel like I am thriving and not just surviving. Going to Jesus instead of bread and Amazon has been so rewarding. I am sleeping better. God’s peace fills me. I am more available to my boys and my husband. But most importantly, the intimacy with the Holy Spirit is at a whole new level. My awareness of His presence carries through to all my relationships, including my relationship with my self. Showing myself grace, forgiveness, and love at a whole new level.

Does pain feel good. Oh heck no! But, I do not regret it. I wouldn’t change it for ANYTHING! As I have learned to allow the spirit to be my midwife, I have learned the power of being delivered from pain and not numbing it until it sneaks up again.

How are you doing? How is your heart? How is your mind? Are you allowing Jesus to be your midwife?

I can promise you that the Vodka, the Oxycontin, the pot, the shopping, the eating, the sex, the porn, or the self harm will not EVER deliver you from the pain. It may numb it, but the pain will always come back. Then you have the pain and the regret from how you tried to numb the pain. It isn’t easy, but if you can sit in the pain, feel it, process it, and allow Jesus to hold you and comfort you, the healing will come. God is the God of miracles. He is in the business of restoration, redemption, and making beautiful things out of dust.

You are brave. You are courageous. You have everything you need in Him, whose power resides in you, to be free of your pain. As you find freedom from your pain, you will also find that the goodness of God expands your territory for ministry. Through your healing and freedom, you will be used to help others experience healing and freedom from their pain! #worthit

2 Corinthians 1:3-5

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.

Romans 8:28

28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

Romans 11:33-36

33 Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and[a] knowledge of God!
    How unsearchable his judgments,
    and his paths beyond tracing out!
34 “Who has known the mind of the Lord?
    Or who has been his counselor?”[b]
35 “Who has ever given to God,
    that God should repay them?”[c]
36 For from him and through him and for him are all things.
    To him be the glory forever! Amen.

John 13:7

“Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”

 

Juice Cleanse Recap

Okay, FOR REALS, the absolute best way to start my 2018 was with the juice cleanse that I did with my dad and sister. We did 3 juices a day filled with Kale, Spinach, Ginger Root, Lemon, Cucumber, Broccoli, Celery, apples, and oranges. I cannot deal with the texture of the juice, so I added frozen mangos and pineapples to mine. SO GOOD! A few of the days I would go to our local fresh juice spot and buy one so it still felt special 🙂

2017 was by far the most unhealthy year of my life. My eating habits along with being so sedentary left me with nasty vertigo, HORRIBLE heart burn, and bloating. In addition, I had a foggy brain along with being extremely sluggish and tired all day. All of that was  just physical side effects, emotionally, I felt a lack of self respect and pride because I was not taking care of myself.

My wake up call came to me the last week of December. I was lying in bed and all of the sudden I had, “Mayday, Mayday, Mayday”, screaming in my head. I then saw myself in a hospital bed. It was as though I saw a picture of where I was headed if I didn’t take control of my health.

I immediately sent out a group text to my family seeing if anyone wanted to start the year with a 5 day juice cleanse and my dad and sisters jumped on board. So we decided, January 2-6, we would detox with juice and then for the next 5 months have a weekly weigh in so that we would have accountability with eating healthier this year. One of my sisters and I decided that if we lost 40 lbs. by June 2nd, we would go on a shopping trip.

So, with accountability and motivation in place, I was ready to kick 2018 in the teeth!

I sit here on the 10th feeling better than I have felt in years! More energy, hydrated skin, clarity of mind, no bloating, no heart burn, and no vertigo. In addition I have not had a head ache in about a week which is a huge statement because of how frequently I used to get them.  The motivation for me to eat healthy is not in numbers on a scale, but how good I feel. For now, I am juicing still 1-2 meals a day and then eating a healthy protein the other meal. I just discovered the Instant Pot and my life is forever changed. The other evening I was running late but needed to eat dinner. I threw in a piece of frozen salmon with water, lemon juice, and some salt and pepper. Within 15 minutes I was eating a piece of flaky and delicious salmon! I am all about convenience, so now I can have healthy food conveniently! Such a game changer! In addition to eating healthier, I have started the Made To Crave Devotional. Every morning I read an entry and it really helps set the pace for the day.

S0, there you have it! I hope that you can be encouraged and inspired! If I can do it, ANYONE can do it! We have one body, it is so important to take care of it.

Always remember, Accountability is essential! Round your peeps and cheer each other on! Make 2018 your healthiest!

Good Bye 2017, Hello 2018

Here I sit on the eve of the last day of the year, 2017. Also, possibly known as one of the hardest years of my life. Fitting that the word the Lord gave me the end of 2016 for this year was “joy”. I should have known 🙂

A few weeks ago Jason asked me what my recap of the word “joy” was for 2017. Without skipping a beat, I knew how to answer. The power of choosing it when everything around me and in me hurts. I don’t know about you all, but the most tangible way for me to choose joy was to be present in the moment and continually making lists of gratitude. I was in the midst of losing my daughter, but I could look in the eyes of my boys and know that God was good and could be trusted. I knew and still know today that He loves my baby girl more than I could ever fathom and so she is in good hands. That truth helped me choose joy through tears and a hurting heart.

I choose joy over the entire year of 2017. God’s hand was on me and at times carried me and I am beyond thankful.

Here are some of my most favorite hi-lights of 2017:

  1. Nanners moving in
  2. Leading my Dwelling Place and Mom To Mom tables
  3. Our annual 2 weeks in Tahoe (of course with 2 of my favorite families for one of the weeks) *best Tahoe vacation to date
  4. Reconciled and restored relationships
  5. The birth of my amazing niece, Callie Brave
  6. The Bible becoming more alive to me than ever in my 37 years of existence
  7. Watching my boys become friends
  8. Kidless weekend with Jason and friends in LA
  9. First Thrive Conference at Southwest
  10. The revolving door of teenage girls coming over to hang and educate me on the ways of life
  11. Jenkins family coming on staff at Southwest
  12. My second step study with some flipping amazing women
  13. Sister weekend in San Diego and laughing so hard it hurt
  14. Phil Wickham/Shane and Shane Christmas concert with some of my favorites
  15. Going through a devotional with Jason
  16. Increased intimacy with Jesus
  17. Marriage stronger and better than ever. Loving Jason more today than ever before
  18. Watching Jason love Jesus, his family, and his job SO well
  19. Baptizing one of the most amazing and inspiring people I know
  20. Because of God’s grace and goodness, having my friend, Courtney, in town and by my side during one of the most painful nights of my life.
  21. Weiland asked Jesus into his heart and was baptized by Jason.

These were just 20! I have so many more! BUT, it is your turn now! Maybe this was your best year yet?? Maybe it was your worst year yet?? Either way, there are at least 20 hi-lights that you can list! Don’t delay! Watch the gratitude transform your heart and mind. You will have a renewed perspective, I promise!

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (NIV)

16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

Now onto 2018…. “Peace” …. Here we go!

Short Circuiting

Hello!

Long time no write! I think about this blog and my readers often. When I think about sitting down and attempting to write a post, I get overwhelmed. I don’t even know where to begin so I just don’t post.

Today I am hosting an open house for my client’s home, so I have some time to formulate my thoughts, 3 hours to be exact 🙂

This season has been very unique.  It has been a season of solitude. It has been a season of introspection.  It has been a season of richness.

It seems as though every time I turn around God is working in me or speaking to me. It is such sweet intimacy that I don’t want it to ever end. The other day Jason was joking to a friend that he is waiting for Jesus to tell me to clean the kitchen 🙂 I laughed pretty hard. I usually have one nap time a day to take advantage of. It is either time with Jesus, a shower, or clean the house…I choose Jesus. So my poor husband lives in a dirty house with a dirty wife, at least my soul is squeaky clean 🙂

This does not mean that I do not have hard days. This does not mean that I have stopped yelling at Weiland or that I have stopped going to food or shopping for comfort.

This is where I short circuit. I have never been more hungry for Jesus and His word in my entire life, so I automatically and subconsciously put pressure on myself that my life should look more perfect than it does. It is definitely evolving, changing, and reflecting more of who I want to be every day, but I don’t arrive and I never will on this side of heaven. I have to be okay with that and show myself grace.  It is what keeps me desperate and on my knees for Jesus.

It is so hard for me to fathom God’s perfect and massive grace for me. It causes me to short circuit. I can often be caught staring into space because I just can’t wrap my mind around God’s incredible and never-changing character. His pursuit is relentless, gentle, and so kind. He sees me the midst of my brokenness and delights in me.  A human mind cannot fathom this kind of affection.

So, I don’t know where you are as you read this. Some of you may not own a Bible. Some of you may not know where your Bible is. Some of you may have it laying open next to you right now. It doesn’t matter where you are in this current season. My same amazing God is relentlessly pursuing you as well. Allow Him in. Allow Him to love you perfectly. Allow Him to break down walls around your heart. Allow Him to take control of your finances. Allow Him to mend your broken marriage. Allow Him to restore your hope and trust in Him. Allow Him to cradle your hurting body in His capable arms. He is more than able to carry whatever you are holding onto today.

Personally I am on a journey of figuring out why I turn to food and shopping for control. I am determined with God’s help to get to the bottom of it so that I can more easily relinquish control when future hardships hit.

You are not alone. We are in this together. Jesus sees you and beams with pride over His beautiful son/daughter. You are enough.

 

 

It’s a Cookie!!

This morning my eyes zeroed in on the left over plate of chocolate chip cookies from dessert last night. I’m not gonna lie, I had a few as my breakfast. (my journey with food will be on the blog soon) Anyways, Marty walked over and I offered him a bite of my cookie. He just looked and said “no”. I thought to myself, “of course he doesn’t want a cookie with a bite out of it. He wants a new and untouched cookie”. So, I looked for the softest one in the bag and held it out for him. He looked at me and said, “no.”  I then realized that he didn’t know what it was or what it tasted like. It was easy for him to say “no” to it because he was uneducated on the goodness that was contained in that little piece of fluffiness.

This has got me thinking this morning. I think we say “no” to goodness from our daddy’s open hand on a regular basis because we don’t know what it is that He is offering. We forget His faithful and good character.

Every morning we wake up and He has good things in store, but we choose to be grumpy because we aren’t looking forward to what we think today holds. He is standing at our bed side with an open hand of an amazing day that He wants to hand us. But we choose “no”.   I am not saying that He is offering a perfect day without troubles, but I am saying that He is offering to walk through it with us and show His face and sprinkle blessings along the way.

Maybe God has a new job for you and your scared because you have been working at your job for 10 years and it’s comfortable and predictable…God is looking at you, “No, really, this cookie is delicious, warm, and will rock your world”. We look at him and say “no, thank you”.

I know for me personally I have missed out on some incredible relationships because of my insecurities, fear of rejection, or maybe just because I was lazy and didn’t feel like investing.

I am about to say good bye to someone that I pushed away for years. I allowed my insecurities and fear of rejection hold her at a distance. About a year ago, Jesus finally had his way and caused mine and this friend’s world to collide in a way that I never saw coming. She has challenged me to embrace myself through the eyes of love, grace, and kindness. She has introduced me to the holy spirit in a way that has forever changed me and my relationship with Jesus. Courtney, you are a chocolate chip cookie that I said “no” to for so long, I am so thankful for Jesus’ persistence in getting our worlds to collide. Now, I will try not to be bitter at the lost years! 😉

What is your cookie that Jesus is extending to you?

Is it a job? Is it a house? Is it a move? Is it adoption? Is it fostering? Is it a career change? Is it a relationship? Is it investing more into your marriage? Is it letting go of your finances in exchange for what Jesus has for you?

Join me, let’s quit saying no to God’s goodness when it may not look like His goodness. Say “yes!” to the unfamiliar cookie!!!

It is time to trust Him and His never-ending faithfulness. Sit back and watch His blessings pour out on us. He has good plans for us that we just have to accept, choose, and walk out.

Jeremiah 29:11 “ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'”

“Samson With a Buzz Cut”

I don’t know that I have ever listened to the same message 3 times, until this month. Levi Lusko gave a message at Passion 2017 that rocked my world. Levi referred to relying on our own strength like Samson with a buzz cut. Anyone who knows the story of Samson in the Bible knows that his strength left him along with his hair when it was cut off. Levi talked about how we over and over again try to rely on our own will-power instead of God’s power. We come to find that we are just like Samson with a buzz cut. We are desperate for God’s power. His amazing and perfect power.

I am desperate for God’s power. His amazing and perfect power.

Up until last Friday, I realized that I had been trying to operate out of my own strength in a certain situation and I was failing miserably…obviously!

I found out a few weeks ago that my mentor is moving. It hit me like a ton of bricks. It took me until last Friday to pull up my big girl pants and fall into God’s strength. For weeks I cried, I ditched church, I was angry, and I was mean to those around me. Surprising enough, my own strength failed me. After a series of podcasts, hours of worship music and journaling Jesus kindly revealed to me that His strength is capable enough to carry me.

So, here I am, allowing myself to mourn the lack of proximity of someone so dear to me, but clinging to Jesus and His great strength and I am doing well 🙂 I know that God has big and good things in store for the both of us.

It is one thing to be bummed, its another thing to allow it to zap us. I don’t know about you, but in my zapping, I was selfish and not as effective as I could have been if I would have from the beginning been relying on His power and not my own.

Do you have something bumming you out? Maybe a friend moving away? Maybe work drama? Maybe you have no idea how you are going to pay August’s rent/mortgage? Maybe you are drowning in diapers? Maybe your drowning in social media as you look for your teenager? Mourning the loss of your marriage? Health issues? Can’t buy a house? Can’t sell a house? Desperately wanting to find a spouse? Maybe have a baby? Mourning a broken relationship that you care so deeply about?

You will not get through on your own power. You are desperate for God’s supernatural power that is here and ready for the taking. Don’t waste anymore time trying to get through this season on your own!

Choose Jesus. Reach out and grab His extended hand and then hold on tight because the journey is amazing and worth it!